It’s so incredibly easy to get caught up in thinking that the world is not made of magic.
That we have to always push and strive and battle.
Because so often we have had to.
But it isn’t always the way.
It isn’t always what’s needed from us.
And for those of us who have grown up as fighters, the hardest thing in the world is letting go.
Trusting that both the Universe and the people around you have your back.
That you will still get where you want to go if you take a break and just breathe.
But I find so much more strength in the surrender than I ever feel I have in the fight.
It’s just that I have to keep reminding myself of that.
It’s the common problem of outgrowing old patterns and old ways of being, no matter what yours are.
For me it’s the fight.
It’s the struggle.
It’s the thinking that the world is my enemy.
That I constantly have to prove my worth before they prove to me that I have none.
But for me that is what expansion is about.
Allowing more in.
And allowing more out.
Allowing for the truth of my inherent worth and allowing for the truth of everyone else’s.
Being open to new ideas, new information, new ways of being and thinking and feeling.
New ways of relating to myself, to others, to my emotions.
New, deeper ways of feeling alive.
I find it easier when I travel, when I’m in nature.
It seems to make more sense to me there.
It seems easier to believe in my own capacity for expansion when I can see how vast the world is without even trying.
It makes me feel like I could be the same.
That instead of thinking I have to work so hard to hold in the ‘bad” parts of myself, I could just let go.
I could learn to love all parts of myself and the good would shine out brighter than it ever has.
It is not an original thought, but one that seems groundbreaking to me each and every time I come back to it.
Doing the work is allowing yourself to be wrong, to get off track, and to have the strength and courage to bring yourself home again.
To start anew and to expand even further this time.
Knowing that the next time your world starts to shrink it can only shrink so far.
That you will wake up sooner each time.
And rebuild and expand anew.